I don't know how many of you experience this sort of thing, but I haven't been in forever and I'm a bit nervous. I'm excited because I missed it, but I'm also nervous. It's like, what if I can't remember how to use any of the equipment and I look like an ass?
It's more than that, though.
I've talked to other big girls and we all agree that it can be very nerve wracking to go to the gym. We fear a certain level of judgement from the other people there. Here are some common thoughts we big people experience:
- "Do they think I'm fat and lazy?"
- "Am I jiggling? Please, PLEASE don't let me be jiggling. I am, aren't I?"
- "Sweet GOD, why do I sweat more than anyone? Is it because I'm fat?"
- "Oh Lord, I'm so out of shape and everyone else is so fit."
- "I keep having to stop and no one else is.... I bet they think I'm out of shape."
- "How did the last person lift this much?!"
As you can see, some people have a hard time going to the gym because they get self conscious going. It can become a mental battle just to get through your work out. I'm not saying that all big people (hell, I'm not even saying that only big people get the Gym Jitters!) have these thoughts, but I've talked to many people that get nervous.
I've heard at least one other friend who had a girl be nasty to her. I've even had a skinny girl give me dirty looks while I was trying to work out. It hurts when people do that sort of thing. We're at the gym, trying to get healthier and lose some weight and then when someone affirms our self doubt, it can really damage our progress. We're already ranking on ourselves, no one at the gym needs that kind of disrespect.
So all that being said- conquer your gym jitters!!! I get self conscious just going for a walk to work out, but we're being silly! A lot of the people at the gym are so focused on their work out that they don't notice anyone else (unless you're like, yelling or something). The gym is actually pleasant to go to (at least for me). You get to use nice equipment, it's a place where your phone/life can't bother you because you're just there to work out, and it can be fun and relaxing! You get to just focus on yourself and what you're doing. :)
All that being said, I'm going to do my darndest to go to the gym today! You hear that, sleep deprived body? We're going to take a nap and then work out!
That's right. I just talked to my body. Online.
<3 - CFC