I live with my best friend who is basically my sister. We'll name her SC for Skinny Chick. SC is small, thin, has huge boobs, an actual ass and hips, and everyone loves her. She's sweet, has a family that loves her and has supported her, and guys are attracted to her. I love her dearly, but she will never and can never understand what it feels like to feel fat and unattractive ALL THE TIME.
The "Joys" of Having Hot Friends
I do social dancing (dancing where you dance with a bunch of different people, like swing) with my friends and there have been so many times when SC and I will be sitting on the side and guys will just keep asking her to dance and I barely get asked once. All I can think is that it HAS to be because I'm fat and she's so perfect. It's really hard not to think like that all the time. It's one of those things that you have to keep fighting.
Further, I've had guys come talk to me or become my friend just for the sole purpose of trying to get with SC. It's infuriating and it makes it super hard to trust a guy's intentions when he wants to be your friend. It's like, are you just being nice to the fat friend because her friends are so hot?
Oh my GAWD, I could rant about clothes forever. You go shopping and hold up an extra large and it's like, how the hell am I supposed to fit in that? That is clearly made for a skinny chick. Then you go to plus size and it's like, can't they make anything cute in MY size? And then every single brand of clothing sizes differently. My boyfriend bought me two corsets (I said I was fat, not ugly) online. I chose XXL just because I heard that their sizes run small. They don't FIT. They barely fit SC! I have a size L corset from Charlotte Russe that fits just fine and these stupid ones, fully unlaced, won't even fit around me. When you're fat, nothing fits right and sometimes clothes shopping can be hell.
<3 - CFC