My Reaction to Sharing this Blog with Friends

So I had a mini freak out after I shared this blog with my friends. I have never told ANYONE my weight and there it is, right in my bio for the whole world to see. I never told my BF how much I weighed or anything and I freaked out a wee bit because now he'll know that I actually weigh more than him. So I proceeded to text him (while he's deployed across the ocean) word vomit about how I never wanted to tell him how much I weigh because I thought he wouldn't be as attracted to me because I outweigh him and all this other word vomit (it was a long, long text). This was followed by a text explaining why the first was so long and rambling and that I can't move forward with being healthy if I can't face how unhealthy that I am or if I'm afraid of what he thinks.

His awesome and short reply? "I don't care how much you weigh as long as you're healthy and can walk up a hill."

Wow.

He's a keeper. :) Though now I have to go walk up hills so that when he comes back I can walk them with ease, lol. ("SEE?! I CAN WALK UP A HILL!" <- This is what I shall yell when he returns. Because I'm normal.)

I've gotten a ton of support from my friends already about how awesome they think this blog is and how amazing it is that I can put myself out there. I even made peace with someone from middle school (see bullying entry). I already feel so much better about myself and my life. It's not a secret anymore and people DON'T CARE. It's like this weight (is that a pun?) has been lifted off of my shoulders. I think I'm another step closer to accepting myself on a physical level- one step closer to looking in the mirror and thinking, "That's me and I'm beautiful just the way I am."

Thanks everyone. :) Your support means everything to me!

<3 - CFC

P.S.- Today MIGHT get two posts. I'll know when it's not 5:30am like it is right now. ;)