Some Confessions of a Fat Chick

9/18/2013

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Hi all,

The name of this blog (and me) is Confessions of a Fat Chick, so maybe I should make some confessions. :)

I talk a lot about eating healthy, but I still eat fast food. I go through phases of being able to resist food and then eating more than I should.
I talk about being "fit," but I didn't get addicted to fitness until recently.
I talk alot about body acceptance, but sometimes, I have a hard time accepting my body. Those times aren't as common as they use to be, but I do have times where I hate what I see in the mirror. I get down on myself just like everyone else.
Sometimes, and I HATE myself for this, I find myself judging other fat people. When I realize what I'm thinking, I make myself stop and I kind of internally yell at myself. I regurgitate what society has trained us to think about fat people and I hate when I do it. I cannot be the only person that sometimes finds themselves doing this.
I am all about body acceptance and I want to accept mine and that's what this page is about. However, I also use it to track my weight loss and fitness goals because I want to lose weight. I want to accept my body as it is and damn it, I want to lose weight because that is something that I always wanted to do. You can judge me for that, I don't care. But it's my body and I'll do what I want and what I want is to lose weight for ME. If I stay "fat," that's fine. I just want to be back to my "fat" high school weight. That would be GREAT.

<3 - CFC

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mary

9/18/2013 02:50:46 am

I am exactly the same way. I really appreciate your honesty BC I know I'm not the only one who goes threw this.

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9/18/2013 03:37:29 am

Thanks! I'm happy to hear about other people that think the same. Sometimes I feel guilty about it, but I have to keep reminding myself that I'm human.

Tsu

9/18/2013 05:40:59 am

I'm pretty sure everyone wants to accept their body, but most women struggle. Also it doesn't help that a human body just natural has a weight range of a few pounds from a bunch of different things. One day you can look in the mirror and be like..."Damn I look good!" The next day you feel like you look fatter...and you may be from something as simple as a bit more water retention one day than the next. But since you can look at yourself everyday you're going to notice the little things. Even if you're in the best shape of your life you're going to find small things to be critical of. For example...no matter how good I think I look... I hate that fat around the belly button...that lower ab area >:( Never ever does it look how I would like it to look... Not even when I was running 8-10 miles daily with weight lifting 2-3 days a week and a strict diet where I ate no junk food for a solid 4-5 years of my life. You're not the only one :)

As for judging fat people, now don't get me wrong if you've got confidence in yourself no matter what size or shape rock on, enjoy life. However, it's a natural thing (I feel like not even a society based thing) to have aesthetic preferences. Some people look better some people look worse. And it's all a personal preference. Some people like the stick figure skinny, some like a muscular build, some like a heavy build, some even like a very heavy build. I'm horribly judgmental of heavier people or ugly people who I don't know. It's easy to be. You don't know them, you don't care about them, they will not hear the things you are thinking in your head. And I think it always comes back to you. You see someone and hope you never look the way they do. At least that's how I feel. Regardless, everyone does it and would do it even if society were super accepting of people's sizes, because everyone has their own preference for what looks good or bad physically. (Oh do note, I'm horribly judgey in my head...I would never say anything to make someone feel bad about themselves. That's just uncalled for.)

I think every person in the world wishes they could go back to the high school body that they hated back then but you look back now and think...maaaan I was an idiot back then I had the best body of my life~! XD

Keep at it girlie~! ^_^ You are looking good. It's always good to be happy and healthy and confident about yourself. And it's always good to continue to better yourself in whatever way you see fit. Don't let anybody get ya down :3

9/18/2013 08:23:39 am

When it comes to my high school body, it's kind of funny. I weighed at LEAST 20 pounds less than I do now, but I'm pretty sure that I'm healthier now. I don't like in that awful house, I eat better, I can do more physically, and I'm way more active and healthy. This is purely me being shallow and wanting the weight and measurements back, lol.

And I'm kind of glad to know that I'm not the only judgey one. I've been trying really hard not to be, but failing sometimes.

Everyone likes a different body type. I'm happy that my hubby-to-be doesn't like super skinny because between my metabolism and love of food, I will never be super skinny.

9/18/2013 05:43:07 am

Oh~! When I say "no matter how good I think I look"...I didn't mean that to sound as conceited as it reads~! Lol..I meant it like I'm confident and comfortable with my body and think I look good most of the time XD

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